Tuesday, September 30, 2014

It's October, Baby!

Is it weird that I call you 'baby'?  I mean, I hope it isn't.  We're so close and all... You can call me 'snookums'.  Totally fair.

First things first:  You guys rock my socks.  Truly.  My last post was really hard to type and hitting the "Publish" button was really rough for me.  But, I was trying to keep things real... and it's not always sunshine and roses in my world.  You guys gave me some amazing feedback.  I got comments and emails from some of you that were really amazing... and I realized that I'm not alone.

To answer a question I got quite a bit: yes, I did see a doctor about this.  The answer she gave me was to medicate, but she didn't recommend it until I was done nursing Lily-bean.  I really set a goal to breastfeed until she was one year old, and when I set a goal, I'm like a pitbull.  Or a rottweiler.  Or whatever dog is really good at achieving goals.  I promised the hubs that if it got too bad, I would switch Lily to formula and take what the doctor recommended; I'm no good to my kids if I'm a wreck.

The good news?  LILY'S BIRTHDAY IS NEXT WEEK.  HOLLA.

I think I will make it through this.  And honestly, FOR TRUE, I can't thank you guys enough.  I wanted to email all of you back for your comments, but all I'm getting lately are no-reply comments.  So, if you commented, I totally had a reply for you.  And it's the thought that counts. :)  If you emailed me, I'm trying to get throught them all... and I know you'll be patient... because you're awesome... and exceptionally good looking.

Anyhoos, IT IS OCTOBER.  So exciting!  I have done a "31 Days of Halloween" in the past years and really planned on doing it again this year, but time was not on my side.  Next year, I've got you covered.  To get us through the month, I've got a few Halloween crafts up my sleeve, but I'll also be sharing some of my greatest hits.  Because really, who doesn't love the classics?

Thanks again, guys.  You guys are awesome-sauce. 

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Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Thrifty Crafty Funk

OK, what I'm about to share with you is a bit personal.  It has nothing to do with crafting or cooking or DIYing and I totally understand if you aren't interested in reading to the end... but I am going through something and I need to share it with you.  If you're not in the mood, move on to another, happier blogger, and we'll meet again soon when I have something awesome to share with you.

I am in a funk.

I might even call it depression.

It's definitely anxiety.

I don't know how to get out of this.

It's hard to explain what is going through my head, but it's been boiling up for a few years now.  It started as some anxiety... nothing too serious, just some mild panic attacks that seemed to have no cause.  And then, they became not so mild.

And then came a bit of sadness.  Prolonged, profound sadness that I couldn't escape from.  But it would pass after a few days and I would go back to my normal life.  And then it lasted more than a few days.  And then it got worse.  And worse.

Ugh.

So, in the time since this started, I have been prescribed anti-anxiety medication.  It really did help, but when I got pregnant, I stopped taking it.  I didn't take it everyday anyway, so it wasn't a huge sacrifice.  And any anxiety I had during the pregnancy, I chose to tough out... I had huge fears about what the medication might do to my little in-utero string bean.  And now, I still don't take anything because I'm nursing.  Again, I just don't know what gets passed along in breastmilk.  I'm probably being a bit over-cautious, but I really worry about that sort of thing.

I plan to stop nursing when Lily is one, which is THREE SHORT WEEKS AWAY.  At that time, I'm planning a visit to my doctor to talk about this anxiety and depression.  It is literally crippling me.

I can't do anything.  I don't look forward to anything.  Everything is overwhelming.  I am cranky and irritable and not myself.

I don't know how to get out of this.  Did I say that already?

What does this have to do with you or this little blog?  Nothing, really.  I just felt the need to share it with you.  I have no game plan, no 'I'm totally gonna beat this' mentality, and no intentions of planning a pity party for myself.  But when you're miserable, you hope for someone in the world to say, "hang in there, I'm here for you".

Maybe I can plan a happier post for next week?  Let's all hope so.

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